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Sunday, September 10, 2017

Losing Teeth and Weathering the Storm

Last night I had two very vivid and interesting dreams. The first was one in which my son and I escaped a tornado by jumping into a river. The second dream was one in which my teeth were falling out and I was able to see an emergency dentist to fix the problem. A friend of mine with a degree in psychology insists that these dreams are associated with feelings of helplessness, fear, chaos, and change... While initially I might have balked at the idea of "dream reading", her assessment couldn't possibly be more apt. 

Starting a new job is always a struggle, but the hospital I'm working at now is the largest level 1 trauma center in the area. It is chaos and it is challenge. This new position, when taken together with my lengthy commute, family needs, and grad school responsibilities has me emotionally and spiritually drained. 

I thank God for all the wonderful opportunities I have, but I also thank God for the awareness that I may be floundering; and that left unchecked I may do myself more harm than good. Fortunately, I need not do this alone. I have support, and most importantly I have God. So much of what I am anxious about are things beyond my scope of control. I need only to accept that, and trust that God will be with me at all times.

"The courage to be is rooted in the God who appears when God has disappeared in the anxiety of doubt." 

- Paul Tillich

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